Hai iam an engineering student iam a loser,i feel like i had lost everything i my life and i do now wat to do?

hai my name is charan i am an engineering student i was a good student upto my 10+2 and i do no wat happened but i became a loser in my graduation i got ****** up in everything i got 20 backlogs ,i lost my lover ,i lost my frnds and i have to lead my family i do now what to do i just feel like dying.pls pls someone help me from this i cant feel this pressure anymore in my life.